I. GAME THEORY
The ‘lose-lose’ scenario is a favorite strategy from Game Theory. The ‘lose-lose’ is when one plays to lose. It is played well when everyone loses. I am really good at this. Getting this crap out of my system gives me clarity. I also have little to lose and I think I may lose that. My Dad and sister have a lot to lose.
II. WITHIN THE SCOURGED
My sister is a nurse at Trinity Mother Frances Hospital in Tyler, Texas. One would think that a nurse would be observant in someone’s change of behavior. One should ask her when the last time our Dad has treated anyone like he has treated me. There has been a vindictive discourse toward me and that has stemmed from him and her. She could not tell you when our Dad has treated another human being like a dog. He has never exhibited this form of behavior. Something has been drastically wrong with my Dad and the possibilities behind this are documented in nonAtomas 4: ‘Cut Of A Bladed Spirit.’ The bottom line is that my Dad needs to be examined, because something is seriously wrong with him. His life may be in danger and if my sister does nothing, that is still a choice and it remains as compliant guilt.
Selling the house and our grandparent’s land was a vindictive carving of my heart. Everyone knew how I felt about the place. His childish behavior that preceded the sale only adds to the criminality of the matter. Selling the place also means that the will had to be changed. Mentally impaired people are not allowed to make certain legal decisions. Would my sister become distracted by self-interest? Would a fallow chicanery substitute a reasonable excuse for greed? It is time for other eyes to look upon these matters.
III. OTHER EYES TO LAY OUT THE DARKNESS
A former attorney and few others looked at the material pertaining to these matters. The conclusions were that my Dad, sister, and two cousins engaged in fraud, slander, conspiracy, and few other items that escape me at the moment. These matters open and reopen a lot of doors. If I had a desire to reopen the past, I would have merely filed a civil suit and this would have contained a limited payoff. This goes beyond a mere civil suit because these people committed serious crimes. These people did a thorough job of wrecking my life. The sad thing is that it was all uncalled for.
I was almost finished with therapy and I just wanted to get on with some things. However, since my Dad acted upon his delusions, a mess has been made of my life. My worst experience had been instilled by those endeared whose love was held nearest. Loving them was all that I had ever known and that love had always seemed eternal. I was so desperately wrong and fretting upon this matter only invites further desolation. Irony declares that the enemy had always been kept closer.
My Dad’s intent would also seem to call particular matters in question. He and my brother made two assault attempts and both occurred after my favorite uncle and oldest friend had passed away. The second attempt was successful and I must wonder if his intent was to kill me. Would my Dad have murdered me in order to protect one his secrets? The saddest aspect is that all had been forgiven.
IV. ANOTHER SOFT HOSTAGE
There is also the matter of Mum. I have stated elsewhere that her breast cancer had given me the Mum that I had always wanted. Mum had come to her senses. My Dad and sister thought it best to gaslight her, to keep telling her that she was losing her mind. The notion of her being in the hospital for a type of blood poisoning is something else within this fray. My Dad administered her medicine. Could slips in the dosage have brought upon the condition that hospitalized her? Would these slips be intentional or not? It is interesting that a thought had entered my mind and that is how I discovered Mum’s condition. One may or may not believe in God, super-nature, or any such elevated plane of existence. However, that thought did precede me driving to see her and these are the actions that followed the thought.
These two illegally barred Mum from seeing me. They controlled and manipulated her. Their cunning knows no bounds and their cruelty is lecherous and vindictive. What did Dad do with Mum’s genealogy things? He cut-off her email, sold her car, and quietly went about making her his soft hostage. I had already experienced such things, I could not stand Mum or anyone going through that.
V. THE DISTANCE OF TOMORROW IS BLINDING
I would have never dreamt that my parent’s twilight years would have been spent in such an absurd manner. In 2009, I was in the hospital with pneumonia and I had decided to make one more attempt at getting to know my parents better. I loved the fact that their new house was built on my grandparent’s land. That place had always been home to me. That seems so long ago and I was so naive. I had actually been worried about my Dad’s sins following him to the Bema Seat. Now it seems as if he seems set upon getting to Hell as quickly as possible. However, God can forgive anything if one asks and repents. Jesus changes lives. He should know this though, after all, he was deacon in the Elkhart Methodist Church for all of those years. Knowledge is vain if never applied and God holds us accountable to what we know and how we apply it.
Betrayal came by all and Dad and my sister did not act alone. Pastor Craft was a minister at the Methodist Church at the time. I asked him to apply Matthew 18:16 to my family situation. Instead, he sold-out our conversations to my family. Later on, and a lot of other ministries declined Matthew 18:16 as well. This was a church problem and they did not even try.
nonAtomas 9
Atoma is a Greek word that means `indivisible'. The English word `atom' comes from `atoma'. The notion of family is a foundation for society. A family's strength resides in the glue that holds them together. Love has its wisdom, abiding loyalties, and love is indivisible. Love is glue, atoma. Non-atoma families make breaking worlds. This has been The League of Dread..
MEMORY FADING IN DREAM + nonAtomas 9 + LEAGUE OF DREAD
by El-Pooh!
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